I Am That Foolish

I am that foolish that I will keep loving you after you’ve stopped loving me.

I am that foolish that even if you unfriend me – whether on social media or in real-life – I will still keep loving you. I will still keep being your friend. I will still keep praying for you.

I am that foolish that when I love you, I will forget most of the horrible things you’ve said or done.

I am that foolish that I will reach out not once, not twice, not three times, but for as long as my hope remains.

I am that foolish that I truly believe that love conquers all.

I am that foolish that I see and believe in your potential, and often ignore your reality.

I am that foolish that I believe in your dreams and will help you fulfill them, even if you don’t believe in me and mine.

I am that foolish that I love without reserve.

I am that foolish that even when I have recognized that you don’t have my best interest at heart, if you’re hurting, I will try to help you.

I am that foolish that I will never stop believing in love.

I am that foolish.

Constantly Thinking...

End Note: I am proud to be that foolish because you know who else is that foolish? Jesus.

Heart-Sick Over Evil

Thinking about former friends and former loves today...with a bit of sadness in my heart.

This is one of those days when I miss what I thought we had... true love, true friendship, a real relationship.

I miss the friend I believed you were.

I miss the love that seemed real at the time.

I miss the closeness we seemed to share.

All I can say is it was real to me, then and now. If you were just playing, just toying with me, just using me and my love or my friendship, shame on you. That's kind of evil. You'll have to live with that.

What I felt was true. What I gave was real. My love, my friendship was sincere.

Of course, if I had to do it all over again, eyes wide open, knowing what I know now, I'd walk away before my heart ever became engaged, before I ever extended my friendship and my love to you.

The good thing is that I learned from it all so I have no regrets.

I've learned that there are really good sincere people out there. I've learned that there are true friends who know how to both give and take. I've learned that there are truly noble, faithful, wonderful men in the world.

People who are fakers, takers, insincere, liars, and cheaters try to convince you that everyone is that way. Here's a tip: They're wrong. The reason they think that is because that's their circle. Everyone they associate with... falls into their category. They're surrounded by people just like them.

That's their choice. I've chosen a different path.

I choose the path of sincerity, true friendship, faithfulness, truthfulness and love. It is because of that choice that my heart hurts today. My heart hurts for what I thought we had, what we could have had.

My heart is a muscle, though. It will heal and keep on loving.

Constantly Thinking...and making better choices...