Won’t You Miss the Weather?

“Won’t you miss the weather?”

That’s the question I was asked most when I shared that I was leaving California and moving back to the East Coast.

Only now, six months later, have I really been able to process that question.

Won’t I miss “THE WEATHER”?? The Weather. Really?

After living in California for 20 years, the first thought Californians have is “won’t I miss the weather?”

The short answer is easy. No.

I will miss the people I love. I will miss my friends. I will miss my church. I will miss my job, coworkers, staff, teachers, students, families.

I will even miss some of the places I loved to frequent – restaurants, the Grove, theme parks, museums, and sometimes...the beach.

I will miss seeing movies first. I love movie screenings. I love going to the Academy during Oscars week to see the shorts and animated films.

The weather is low on my list, if it makes the list at all. Mostly because I have heat intolerance so extremely hot weather is not good for me. I pass out. Also, because I love the change of seasons. Fall on the East Coast is my favorite time of year. And, I am actually one of those rare people who loves snow and colder weather. It doesn’t bother me. I can always layer up. There’s only so much you can take off when you’re hot.

But let’s get back to the original question. “Won’t you miss the weather?”

If I was leaving any other state to move to any other state, that would not be the first question.

In fact, when I’ve moved from other states to go back to California (I’ve lived there three times), no one in those other states asked me if I was moving to California for the weather.

People are my priority. Relationships, real relationships, are my priority. True friendships. Close family ties are my priority.

Even after being in Cali for 20 years (this last stretch), I never got used to being penciled in, no-shows at hosted events, flakes, not being able to visit close friends and family without calling, not seeing people I love who live in the same city - for months at a time. I never got used to people asking “Who else is coming?” when being invited to private events at my home. I never got used to not having close enough relationships that I could just come over and hang out with no agenda.

MY home was that way. Everyone knew my door was open. I had friends come over and spend the night – even though they lived locally. Sometimes they just wanted to get away, and they knew my home was the place to do that.

I hosted Thanksgiving dinner annually for those who couldn’t go back home, or those who just wanted to share a meal with family. I usually hosted Easter dinner, as well. I had annual Oscar parties. I organized birthday celebrations, for myself and for others. I coordinated group movie and theater outings. (Still do – even though I’m now 3,000 miles away!)

Back on the East Coast, not only do and will I still do those things, my friends and family here do them, as well. Game nights, girls nights out (or in), family dinners, birthday celebrations, day parties – these are regular occurrences here.

I am always welcome at my sisters’ homes. We have each other’s keys. We don’t need to call first – unless we want to confirm they’re in town.

 “Won’t I miss the weather?” Give me a break! No! I will NOT miss the weather. I will miss the people I love.

Ironically but fortunately, I see many of the Cali people I love even more than I did when I lived there so, thankfully, I haven’t had to miss them too much.

Relationships are my priority. They are what I care about. Not the weather.

Constantly Thinking…(not about the weather)

I Am That Foolish

I am that foolish that I will keep loving you after you’ve stopped loving me.

I am that foolish that even if you unfriend me – whether on social media or in real-life – I will still keep loving you. I will still keep being your friend. I will still keep praying for you.

I am that foolish that when I love you, I will forget most of the horrible things you’ve said or done.

I am that foolish that I will reach out not once, not twice, not three times, but for as long as my hope remains.

I am that foolish that I truly believe that love conquers all.

I am that foolish that I see and believe in your potential, and often ignore your reality.

I am that foolish that I believe in your dreams and will help you fulfill them, even if you don’t believe in me and mine.

I am that foolish that I love without reserve.

I am that foolish that even when I have recognized that you don’t have my best interest at heart, if you’re hurting, I will try to help you.

I am that foolish that I will never stop believing in love.

I am that foolish.

Constantly Thinking...

End Note: I am proud to be that foolish because you know who else is that foolish? Jesus.

10 Things I Wish I’d Known Before Becoming a High-Ranking Female Executive

Work-life balance is extremely important for any executive, but for women in the workplace, it’s even more crucial. We deal with issues that our male counterparts rarely encounter.

Early in my career I was excited to move up the ranks in the professional world, getting promoted from assistant to coordinator to manager. What no one told me or prepared me for was that when I got to the level of senior manager and director, then later to president and CEO, the game changed. It was no longer just an uneven playing field. It was a completely different field altogether.

Here are 10 things I wish I’d known or fully understood before I became a high-ranking female executive.

1. You Become a Unicorn. As a member of senior management, or the head of your organization, you are often the only woman in the room. If you are a minority female, then you are usually both the only minority AND the only woman in the room. To excel in the workplace, this reality is something you need to get comfortable with to the point of not reacting to it or even noticing it. Some of my executive sisters have admitted to exclaiming, “Oh wow. I’m the only woman in the room!” They later found themselves irritated when that fact was used as a handicap or jokingly as part of the dialogue. “We have to watch our language since we have a woman in the room.” The less you react to the gender difference, the less your male counterparts will. You are all executives in the room, there to get a job done.
2. You Become a Cryptologic Linguist. Imagine being dropped into a foreign country where you don’t speak the language of the land but you are still required to excel at the same level as its citizens, or beyond, lest you be faced with deportation. Welcome to the upper ranks of Corporate America where men have their own language, activities, and work styles. They meet on the golf course, the cigar bar, or at sports events to talk business. It doesn’t typically occur to them to invite you to those places, and when you invite yourself, the conversation changes. (It’s similar to how we adjust our conversation when a man walks into a beauty salon or the ladies room.) Since man-speak is still the primary corporate language, women executives often must work harder to get the same results simply because we communicate differently. We are required to either become cryptologic linguists to break their language code, or we have to manage to get by on the breadcrumbs of information we can snatch up. The good news is that we have learned how to create masterpieces out of breadcrumbs!
3. You Frequently Have to Be a Ventriloquist. In male dominated meetings, it is not uncommon for a female executive to present a brilliant, well-thought-out idea only to not have it heard until one of their male colleagues repeats it, at which point it’s deemed excellent and innovative. Of course, the “dummy” who shares it as his own typically has no idea how to implement it, so you end up being asked to assist…with your own idea.
4. You Are Perceived as Too Much or Too Little. If you have a great sense of humor and like to laugh, you may be considered silly and not taken seriously. If you’re more the serious type, you may be perceived as moody or too intense. If you speak with the same force and tone as your male counterparts, you will likely be called attitudinal, bitchy, or too sensitive. If you’re too quiet, you’re deemed weak. If you’re too vocal, you’re considered too talkative. I was once labeled “hard-headed” because I disagreed with a colleague’s idea. When our male colleagues disagreed with him, however, it was considered a “counter viewpoint we need to hear.” There is no middle ground that satisfies everyone, so just be you.
5. You Have to Build in Bathroom Breaks. Physiologically, we women are completely different from our male counterparts. In addition to pregnancy and post-partum changes, we have monthly issues we must face. Having to leave a long meeting for a desperate bathroom break, with a tell-tale purse or supply case in hand, can be embarrassing. What’s more embarrassing, however, are the numerous stories I’ve heard from my executive sisters who waited too long to make their exit and literally left their mark in the board room or on the president’s office chair.
6. Nobody Believes You’re the Boss. A few weeks (or days) into your new executive position, as you start attending conferences or business meetings, surely it’s normal to expect industry colleagues and vendors to be eager, impressed even, to meet you, the head of the company. Instead, if you arrive at a meeting with one of your male employees or counterparts, people will immediately defer and direct all conversations to him. The male-dominated corporate culture is so deeply ingrained that even other female executives will make this mistake. Being on the receiving end of this can be humiliating and infuriating, so practice your coping and redirection strategies in advance. Here’s a tip: You’re the boss whether they believe it or not. Don’t try to convince them. Don’t even introduce yourself. Arrange in advance for your male colleague to introduce you.
7. Lunchtime Can Be Lonely. As a high-ranking female, you’re rarely invited to lunch by your colleagues. Everyone assumes you are already booked solid with business engagements. I recall when I was a director and one of my female division presidents invited me for a casual lunch. We had a great time laughing and talking. When I thanked her for asking me to join her, she said, “You know, you can ask me sometimes, too.” Not until I became a president did I truly understand the loneliness she felt in that moment.
8. You Can Be Unapologetically Feminine (or Not). Contrary to popular belief, dressing like a girl does not make men take you less seriously. If they’re inclined to do that, they will do that whether you have on a tailored pantsuit or a form-fitting dress. Thankfully, professional attire encompasses a wide variety of looks. Figure out which style of dress makes you feel good and empowered, and wear that. If a male colleague offers to hold the door or carry a heavy bag, let him. You don’t have to prove your capabilities to earn their respect. I’ve had male counterparts or superiors let out a string of profanity, then turn to me and apologize. Some women would be offended by that, but I’m honored. It’s a form of respect. Conversely, if you want to wear boxy or androgynous suits and carry your own heavy load, feel free to do that, too.
9. You Become the Mentor. Unlike men, women don’t typically have female mentors who are grooming and preparing them for executive leadership. There is often a competition factor. As a high-ranking female, many other women – young and mature – will look to you for mentorship, even if you’re still figuring it out yourself. The thinking is you made it this far so you must have wisdom to share. A bit surprisingly, I mentor as many men as I do women.
10. The Work Is the Easy Part. The work itself is rarely the biggest challenge most female executives face. More often, it’s subtle misogyny and, if you’re a minority, not-so-subtle racism or discrimination. In my previous position, one of my female clients snidely remarked to me, “Before you came we NEVER had to observe Martin Luther King Day.” I smiled politely and reminded her that before I came, and grew the organization, the business was closed on Mondays.